The ups and downs of being a Spud

Well the past  week was ups and downs, but mainly in points:
Monday - 40
Tuesday - 21
Wednesday - 39
Thusday - 30
Friday - 28
Saturday - 37
Sunday - 28

So as you can see, I was all over the place and to add insult to injury I didn't go to the gym even once.  I know, dumb dah dumb dumb.  Race weekend is T minus 104 days and I'm still not into level 5, which means I'll finish the race in about 40 to 45 minutes... with the people that are walking.  I was hoping to be a few minutes faster than them.. yanno?  lol  On the   upside... didn't gain... but still didn't loose either.  One hell of a fantastic maintenance program I'm on eh?

Well i'm not going to beat myself up over it, just going to push hard for the last 100 or so days and see what that gives me.  I think part of my problem is that my gym membership is up for renewal and I'm really not interested in renewing to go to a place that annoys the fark out of me.  The only reason I go is for the treadmill because it's too cold and slippery outside.  Call me a wuss if you want, but broken ankles and butt bones are not a good thing in my book.  I'm struggling with the idea of dropping the membership and buying a treadmill, but then my frosted side worries that my wheatie side won't work out enough at home... ARRRGGGHHH  If I was rich, this shit wouldn't be an issue LOL  I'd hire some fabulous hunk to be my personal trainer and have him stand at the front of the treadmill  like a big hunky carrot......... *ahem* ok I'm back! 

I'm also pondering the wisdom of going to a bunch of weight watchers meetings... 16 weeks is 210 bucks.... that would take me up and past the race time... and if I don't want to pay more, I could stop going to the meetings... not sure... I may just read more info on the message boards, but I definitely don't want to join online, because I'd never read everything I have to read.... to me internet stuff at home is sporadic... during commercials, while having dinner, while cooking dinner etc, etc.  I'm worried the online stuff would require more focus and concentration.  Besides you *need* to get weighed in front of people for it to shaming you into action LOL  That and the fact that your hard earned dollars are wasting away if you don't actually lose some weight when you're going.  It would be good to have a WW leader to talk too once in awhile... oh well, we'll see :)